My hearts’ desire is to share with you, about being a missionary and how I knew. And of my calling, to being made sure, partaking of his divine nature, and yet there’s more. But first, the knowing.
I have been saved over 30 years. I had a very dramatic new birth experience. God’s presence
came into my room and surrounded me. It felt like pulsating waves of warmth and living love
saturating my entire being. I was so thrilled that God was real, and that he had answered a
simple prayer. “Do you still love me? I need a bible, I don’t have one.” Oh, I was brought up in church as a little girl. But at age 18 everything changed.
After saying that simple prayer, I seemed to be impressed to turn on the television. A minister
was on. He pointed his finger at the screen and said, “Did you know that God still loves you?
And if you need a bible we’ll send you one.” That sent shock waves through my very being that God would answer in such a way. The minister led in a prayer for salvation. Then said,” you
must go tell people what God has done for you.” Needless to say, that sent me on my way.
Immediately I began to share what happened to me as I caught the bus back and forth.
People began to give their hearts to the Lord. I was so excited to tell them. I would ask them
would you like Jesus to come into your heart? And one by one would pray the salvation prayer
At the same time, I began an exhaustive study of the word of God. Night and day, I just
couldn’t seem to get enough of his word; I joined myself to a wonderful denominational church. They taught me what they knew. God bless them! I learned a great deal from them. In times of
quietness I would ask God questions. And to my amazement, someone would walk up to me at the bus stop; not even knowing my thoughts and would answer the very question that was rolling around in my head! How my heart would race with excitement in seeing him answer me in such unusual ways. My zeal you see is not without precedent.
I continued my studies and came among those who had a deeper relationship still. And as I
studied and learned about the Holy Spirit and his gift, God began to speak to me. Sometimes in 2
visions, sometimes in dreams, sometimes his tender voice on the inside. He led me in a teaching ministry to children youth and even mission groups in the early 80’s. In the denomination I was brought up in, they would have made me district superintendent of Sunday school. Then I also was asked to speak for the missionary departments in various district meetings. My great aunt was the missionary president at our local church. Yet the Lord was calling me deeper. In one
vision the Lord said I have called you to preach. I said you mean teach? He replied, “no, I said preach”. Then I began preparing sermons and my church did not believe in women preachers, so I asked a minister of another denomination what to do? He said obey the Lord. I began preaching in the nursing homes in the city jail and in Women’s Aglow meetings occasionally. I didn’t
separate myself from my church, I continued to serve in the capacity that they could receive.
Eventually I went to Rhema bible training Center in Tulsa Ok and graduated from school of
Pastor studies I would have gone on to their school of world missions, but God said to go home. Help my Dad and that there was a church in LA he would send me to. But back in the early 80’s I knew I was called to help the pastor, and I have worked with a few. I knew back in the 80’s that I would one day go to Singapore, Beijing, and the Philippines. The Lord has instructed me also to teach on Faith, the Gifts of the Spirit, Love and Prayer and healing. I have a Facebook page with about 4 years of material that you can look at. I’m learning how to create a website and blog posts. There’s over 40 groups that I already post in all over the world.
There is nothing like having confidence in knowing your purpose and being challenged to
make your calling an election sure. To the second part of the question, I’m learning to give all diligence; in adding to my faith virtue: and to virtue more knowledge. I thank God for these
wonderful classes. I can’t wait to learn how to put a seminar together and run a revival. And to knowledge temperance. And to temperance patience: And to patience Godliness. Oh, the riches of his grace, to teach us so that one day we shall see his face. And to Godliness brotherly and 3
sisterly kindness. And to all these things love. For I know if these things be in me and abound, as the scripture says, “… I will never stumble” 2 Peter 2:10
I have endeavored to give a two-fold answer the question’s set before. I pray that something said would fuel your fire even more. How I knew, and in deep relationship I did procure. And with continued diligence and the grace of God, I will make my calling sure.spirit
Many great structures and monuments have arisen through the ages to the God of our Salvation and to our Lord and Savior Jesus the Christ. Buildings with exquisite Design. Men and women have raised up structures that would be worthy of any substantial man or woman’s fancy. Relished and cherished have they been through the eyes of men, but that’s not what’s important when it comes to pleasing him.” If what I say, is not cherished in exactly the same way, then all other things, though they be dressed in bows, proceeding forth from kings, will wither away with no recognition, except, for the laud and praise of those peers who help bring them to fruition.” (Simple gift of prophecy found in 1Corinthians 12). Let’s build beautiful structures with elaborate designs but adore God’s word at the very same time.
Psalm 119:11 “Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee.
Would you like to see the glimmer of hope in your eyes? Would you like to see beauty for ashes arise? Would you like to see the changing of the tide? Would you like to see truth and justice increase and not subside? Would you like to see the Almighty change lives? Would you like to see men freed from Satan’s lies? Would you take hold together with the cause of Christ? Would you submit yourself to His counsel that is right? Would you wait upon God both day and night? Then you will see the things you desire in your life.
Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Your Covenant Agreement which consists of the articles of the New Testament, clearly define God’s Salvation on EVERY LEVEL with you in mind. Rejoice each day over the benefits that you possess, exercising your faith so that you can enter into His rest. Now, to advance the Kingdom, we must then shift our focus from striving over the realities of our benefits non-stop, to seek those who are desperately in need, so that they too can call upon the God of our Salvation and believe. As ambassadors for Christ, we can minister His Loving Kindness and the Power Of His Endless Life. And in doing that, increasing the family of God by the earnest fervent compassionate work, for the lost and dying that are in the earth. Our God is Mighty to Save.
Isaiah 58:10,11 10 And if thou draw out thy soul to the hungry, and satisfy the afflicted soul; then shall thy light rise in obscurity, and thy darkness be as the noon day: 11 And the Lord shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought, and make fat thy bones: and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not.
I remember years ago when I listened to my mentor Kenneth Hagin, how he overcame the un-overcomeable. He told of his early years of the struggle he had with obedience to the word of God. You see he had a very serious incurable diseases. Kenneth Hagin had just given his heart to the Lord. He was bedfast and going the way that the doctors said. They gave him no hope and he would die before his sixteenth birthday. But when he was feeling good enough, they would prop the bible up before him and he said he would read through the New Testament since he didn’t have long to live. To summarize, there were two important scriptures that seem to stand up before him, one was Mark 11:24 which says what things so ever you desire when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you should have them. The second scripture was, cast all your cares upon the Lord for he cares for you 1 Peter 5:7. Well, his heart grasped the first scripture and he began to seek to put it into motion in his life. But when it came to that second scripture, when it speaks about not worrying, he began to cry. He said “Lord I’m lying here on the bed of affliction, having these heart attacks, trying my best to remain here, and you tell me not to worry?” Then grief turn to bitterness. He began to count all the people he knew that didn’t even live half as good as he did and they weren’t sick and they weren’t afflicted. And he cried and cried all day and all night until he said he had a dark brown headache. But once he got over that crying, that verse stood up before him again, casting all your care upon the Lord for he cares for you. And he said, “OK Lord I’m going to obey you I’m not gonna worry I know where I’m going when I die so I’m just gonna let her go. if I had these heart attacks, and I don’t wake up in the morning, I know where I will be.” But the Lord took his obedience and as he got rid of that fear, ( worry is fear), than his faith begin to take hold. He began to practice the word of God. Not only did God make him well, he made him whole and he had a family, and he raised up a great ministry, and many of us have been beneficiaries of his ministry. And as I quote him, he said, Friends, its God’s word acted upon that brings results. I will never forget the legacy that he left
God wants you to have that same legacy, act upon his word today.
(The Nations) refer to a large body of people united by common descent, history, culture, or language, inhabiting a particular country or territory. Life hasn’t been to sweet for many. Third world countries have suffered tremendously, but for different reasons then the more advanced and highly sophisticated ones. As a matter of fact the more highly sophisticated nations sufferings stem from a different type of pressure. All suffering wether it is released into a highly advance culture or one that is not as developed originates from one regime, that men either refused to recognize or are unconcerned about. (One Other group exists. There are still those who have not had the Gospel preached to them and are made victims by the leaders of their nations due to the rejection of the Gospel.) What we must realize and not turn a deaf ear to is that there is a spiritual nation behind the nations. Their is an outlaw spiritual world which never ceases to manipulate the minds of those who refuse to honor God’s requirements. We even see this as men declare their faith, and say that Jesus is their Savior but refuse to serve him as Lord. ( We read in the Old Testament that judgement starts first of all with the house of God. Then Jesus reiterates this in the first few chapters of the book of Revelation and throughout the Gospels). God said, the nations, ( those who opened their doors), were to be impacted for good, by the standard that Jesus set forth, “Love one Another as I have Loved you”. And Praise be to God there are those who have followed more closely our Savior words and we see pockets of nationals enjoying the beauty of Salvation together with each other. But to those who have clung to their former preferences, before salvation, we see the suffering of many nations, and many rebellious to the Gospels because of these things. This has been a theme throughout history. Many followers of Christ continue to allow themselves to be subdued by their flesh and the devices of Satan. It’s a very sad picture for some who refuse to repent because when one refuses to do obey God’s word, they deceive their own heart. So wether he be a man of the cloth, or a lay-person, even though it appears that there are no consequences for the things they are doing, he or she will stand before God’s judgement seat and give an account for everything they have done in this life. He may reap what he sows in the next life if the believers aren’t compliant enough with the Holy Ghost now. Remember Ananias and Sapphira?
We pray for those who have felt the rejection of their brothers to continue to persevere. Think about Timothy in the early church. God has deemed that those who hold on to him without denouncing their faith, (having walked through the bitter cast systems orchestrated by Satan but carried out by men,) will be able to walk down the streets of the city and partake of the tree of life, who’s leaves are for the healing of the nations.
Revelation 22:8
down the middle of the great street of the city. On each side of the river stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nation
These are words of Jesus
Revelations 3: 11-13
11 Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown. 12 Him that overcometh will I make a pillar in the temple of my God, and he shall go no more out: and I will write upon him the name of my God, and the name of the city of my God, which is new Jerusalem, which cometh down out of heaven from my God: and I will write upon him my new name. 13 He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches.
The woman with the alabaster box took time to minister to the Lord. We can’t stop ministering to the Lord in turbulent times. They were getting ready to crucify Jesus, and life appeared to be soo uncertain as the days progressed. Now think about his ministry as things are transpiring today. He did what he did so that we could come through our trials and live. For through the years, he has been our help, our comfort, our strength, our wisdom, our joy, our peace, our preservation. Let’s not turn and become callous, through tribulations, but earnestly look at what he has done. Let’s minister to the Lord.
Mark 14:3-9
3 And being in Bethany in the house of Simon the leper, as he sat at meat, there came a woman having an alabaster box of ointment of spikenard very precious; and she brake the box, and poured it on his head.
4 And there were some that had indignation within themselves, and said, Why was this waste of the ointment made?
5 For it might have been sold for more than three hundred pence, and have been given to the poor. And they murmured against her.
6 And Jesus said, Let her alone; why trouble ye her? she hath wrought a good work on me.
7 For ye have the poor with you always, and whensoever ye will ye may do them good: but me ye have not always.
8 She hath done what she could: she is come aforehand to anoint my body to the burying.
9 Verily I say unto you, Wheresoever this gospel shall be preached throughout the whole world, this also that she hath done shall be spoken of for a memorial of her.
God is a Love God, and he requires trust, or “Faith.” That’s what Faith is. When you were a baby, naturally your parents took care of you because you were helpless without your parents. A new born baby Christian is like this, provided there is proper nurturing of the more mature around them. But that baby Christian has an advantage if it cleaves to God in its infancy stage, for God can get that baby Christian to the right places if it will cleave to the God of love. The same God that saved can keep if he is trusted. Now, as a natural child grows and develops the trust for his parents, “talking about everything being equal,” the child trusts that parent because the parent has always taken care of him, or her. There is a solid trust and because of this there is a solid love. So when we talk about love and trusting God, if that baby Christian doesn’t cleave to God as a natural child does it natural parents, trust will break up.
Our Father God has said that there was an enemy out to stop us, and if we would keep close to Him in fellowship, and obedience to His word, then nothing could harm us. Our Faith or trust would be as the natural child’s toward his or her parents. Nothing in between, nothing to injure, because we stay in His arms through his word and fellowship. But there is GREAT MERCY. If we have experienced great loss and tragic events, God is reaching out to us and showing us the way back into a secure place. Many years ago, I learned this lesson. God said to me, I will help you, I will build you back up, I will strengthen your mind, I will keep you. I will be with you in trouble, deliver and honor you. Once I was able to relax and trust him again, He has never ceased to fulfill those words in my life. God my Father is Gracious. He want to be gracious to you.
Dwelling in the secret place is a full commitment to diligence, let’s start again, let’s begin.
Psalms 91
1 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty
Would God ask us to do something he was unwilling to do himself? Think about this, Peter asked Jesus, “how many times shall my brother sin and I forgive him till seven times? Jesus answer was starting and astounding. Jesus reply was till 70 times 7 in a day Matthew 18:22, but wait a minute, you have to look at that in both directions. That means if you miss the mark and sin, how many times will God the father forgive you? Would he require something that he himself was unwilling to do? The answer is no. Take this to heart and go free. Don’t let the devil lie to you and say God will not forgive you anymore. Most of the time we’re in a growth process. No, go ahead and serve the Lord without that condemnation. ( there is another group of people that could care less, we are not talking about those who would play roulette with God.) You can jump forward, and get well and succeed if you never let this truth depart. What he did in the Old Testament, he does more through Jesus our Lord.
Psalms 103: 1-6
1 (A Psalm of David.) Bless the LORD, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name. 2 Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits: 3 Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases; 4 Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies; 5 Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle’s. 6The LORD executeth righteousness and judgment for all that are oppressed.
1 John 1: 9 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
After God had wrought a great deliverance to the children of Israel, God attempted to Lead them hand to mouth. Thy rejoiced at the onset but when their thoughts gravitate downward they began to buck and rebel. They lost the their focus in that God was really God and began to imagine maybe all of this is just a bad idea. Ohh God took them from the captivity and bondage of men, but without complete subjection to God they wound up bound up and a slave to their disobedience that cost them everything. In dangerous circumstances, God delivers but it’s in our continued subjection in all things to him that we remain a blessed people. Remain in that place that when we petition him on the behalf of others and for our own nations, he rushes to the aid. Can you hear it? God wants to lead us once again hand to mouth.
Deuteronomy 32:11-20 11 As an eagle stirreth up her nest, fluttereth over her young, spreadeth abroad her wings, taketh them, beareth them on her wings: 12 So the Lord alone did lead him, and there was no strange god with him. 13 He made him ride on the high places of the earth, that he might eat the increase of the fields; and he made him to suck honey out of the rock, and oil out of the flinty rock; 14 Butter of kine, and milk of sheep, with fat of lambs, and rams of the breed of Bashan, and goats, with the fat of kidneys of wheat; and thou didst drink the pure blood of the grape. 15 But Jeshurun waxed fat, and kicked: thou art waxen fat, thou art grown thick, thou art covered with fatness; then he forsook God which made him, and lightly esteemed the Rock of his salvation. 16 They provoked him to jealousy with strange gods, with abominations provoked they him to anger. 17 They sacrificed unto devils, not to God; to gods whom they knew not, to new gods that came newly up, whom your fathers feared not. 18 Of the Rock that begat thee thou art unmindful, and hast forgotten God that formed thee. 19 And when the Lord saw it, he abhorred them, because of the provoking of his sons, and of his daughters. 20 And he said, I will hide my face from them, I will see what their end shall be: for they are a very froward generation, children in whom is no faith.
In the highways, across the seas, through the thoroughfares, In hamlets and cottages, in high places, seeking. Seeking for those who have arrayed themselves with garments of meekness and humbleness of heart, that we may bestow upon them the inheritance promised their fathers and show great mercy to their seed in their generation.
Psalms 37:11
“But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace
Matthew 5:5 5 Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth ◄ 2 Chronicles 16:9
For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to shew himself strong in the behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him.
